IT'S MY LIFE

Could This Be The Untimely End of Gingerbread Hearts?...

Mon, 31 Dec 2007 02:20:55 GMT

And here we are at the end of another year and the start of a new one. I really have to admit i knew it was coming but it didnt really hit me until last night when i took more that one second to think about it. A whole year has gone by. Another rotation.
God. Soon I'll be 40. Thats how I see it. Gives me a kick in the butt. Makes me want to do what i want more and get rid of everything making me sour.
But thats not today. Thats tomorrow. Today is about remembering not planning. And it seems this year has more to remember than most. Its been one fucked up year. To think were I was at this point last rotation and to think where i am now. Im fairly reluctant to read over any post from last year for fear of what i might re-discover.
But briefly lets just recap this year.
new years eve 06 - leaving my friends, leaving a party i felt part of to go and sit on a block of cement. with no clock no radio no concept and a cold heart.
my birthday at shutzenfest. it ended terrible. lots of hidden words from people and lots of anger.there were lots of conversations. poolside. with stacey around this time.
a party - where i took the cheap way out. the stupid way. i still try not to regret it though because in turn it has made me a different person. it still makes me feel vulnerable to some but its has made a difference.
running away to ballarat. being with new people. putting myself under the spot light. finding out who i was. giving myself up to new people. and then learning i was kept in the dark.
monday kareoke. wednesday pool. thursday soccer. i dont think i need to say anymore. that ended by may.
going out with new friends. growning closer to my sister. i cant even bring myself to say that but when i type it i start to cry. i cant even explain it. but it makes more sense than the hatred we always had. learning to live with new people. being opened to new experiences. new ideas. new lives. and even through this. more people.
example. english backpackers. who drastically take everythign you live by and throw it away and make something for themselves with what they have left. but then you meet more people. and the simpsons rules your life.
you realise you have a problem and you need to grow to fight for what you want. you fight and then moments after you regret it. you realise you have more problems. you stand back. you wait.
you go out and ignore whats around you. make one remark and get thrown back in.and from there.you watch more movies than you ever have been to before. you find that you are more open to questions. you have actually changed through the events of the year. and you sit and cry and the person you are now. more like you than before.
i took a risk and met people - people i did not know. i spent a day with them. got to know them. say another side. i took the risk and trusted alot of people. and to my surprise alot came through for me.
I admit this year. i took alot of time just worrying about myself. but i dont think thats all in all a bad thing. I have definatly come out a different person to where i went in.
i think im almost confident enought to go re-read last year.
But before that...
6 months ago we wrote a list. a list to complete before the end of the year.

1- CAMERA. - tax money gave me this. and ai bought a new flashdance camera to - such drama but the hardcore guy at bigW... bonus
2- JOB. - succesfully got a full time job a week or so after writing this list.
3- SHORT COURSE. - didnt have time. although i guess in a way. i am starting to learn to surf. a course in itself.
4- GYM. i joined. i went for 2-3 weeks. i hated it.
5- TRAVEL. i slept on the beach at goolwa. with people i had just met. i saw the stars.
6- DEBIT CARD. - i worked every time the bank was open. then i had no need for one and denied it.
7- TATTOO/PIERCING. i got my boob pierced. it has since left me. but the scar stays and i really like it.
8- RAGDOLL SHOOT. - in a way my alica was my ragdoll. but i dont think ive seen the end of this.
9- GROW MY HAIR. - im growning it as much as i can now after the horrid lesbian incident of just before i met tyrone.
10- GO TO THE THEATRE/OPERA. - i didnt go. i went to the movies liek 18356 times though.
11- BUY FROM IKEA. - cheese grater.
12- COVER MY WALLS IN PAPER. - er....... il say they are but not how i wanted
13- BUY AND WEAR A BANDANA/BEANIE REGULARLY. - i bought 2 hats. and i wear them. im not sxe enough for a bandana
14- WATCH AN ENTIRE TV SERIES ON DVD. done and done. sex and the city
15- ASSERTAIN MY OWN VIDEO RENTAL CARD AND USE IT REGULARLY. - doo dooo yess done and i rent xbox games to!
16- ASSERTAIN A DVD PLAYER TO WATCH SAID MOVIES. doo - doo - yes yes
17- SPEND A NIGHT IN A HOTEL. true that fool i spend 2!
18- EAT TAKE-AWAY ONCE A WEEK ONLY. - DENIED! rofl
19- TREAT MYSELF TO A DAY SPA. denied...
20- RESPECT MY CLOTHING. true that. took a bit but i got there. sans naked pants as they endured paint.
21- WASH MY FACE BEFORE I GO TO BED. i did it once - so it counts
22- VISIT THE DENTIST. DENIED! Hah
23- READ. true that. but all the books are shit house.
24- FILL AN ENVELOPE WITH CASH. - oh my my my how i did :D
25- ROADTRIP. yup - goolwa
26- GET A PROPER HAIRCUT - from tyrones mother.

hmmmm that was slightly better than i thought. i seem to have completed like alot of my list. this fills me with hope.

my january 1st entry just proves that i have, somehow, chosen the right path. if you wonder and are bored.. Why did i choose to call myself old mince?
January 5th is humorous.

So anyway from now on. As I am starting again. I am starting fresh.
You can now find me here --> Lucky13grl

peace out.

Sat, 29 Dec 2007 11:24:51 GMT

I'm dressed up and even wearing a hat but have no-where to go.
No-one there is a point in calling.

My mother told me on New Years I am to take Glens' housewarming/xmas present from our family to him. She bought him a present.

I'm slowly getting more determined. Thank fuck!

Sun, 23 Dec 2007 05:17:28 GMT

50 hours later...

But I have watermelon and 6 presents to open.

Tue, 18 Dec 2007 08:13:50 GMT

Poons,

Who else is going to Vagoo this fri?
Don't make me go alone.

2 happy hours.

Bernadette.

Fri, 14 Dec 2007 02:27:50 GMT

Rich people will only get richer and shit on the poor.
People in power always abuse it.

I'm going nowhere fast.

Nothing like having random wogs sitting at your table at hungry jacks telling you that your made for each other. Everyone askkin were you met an how long you've been together.

Nothing like hearing things about the boys then meeting them an seein it play out infront of you.

Also nothing like being stuck in the middle of a huge fight with no way to escape.
it was scary.

Oh and I'm never going to hq again.

Mon, 26 Nov 2007 08:34:42 GMT

New speakers. Phat bass.
Deviation a day. Second use of my work in a journal.
I.T pro. That's me.

hahaha

Sat, 24 Nov 2007 03:03:57 GMT

Sorry I was in a bad mood alast night.

first image for holidays

Alone with Myself.
In solitude.

Tonight I get a gun.

Wed, 21 Nov 2007 08:17:04 GMT

this is the best thing i have ever seen.
i love the scene.
i cant choose who i want to be!

YOUR SCENE SUCKS DOT COM

GENERIC EMO GIRL.

HOT TOPICCORE.

THE MYSPACE WHORE.

THE SCREAMO FRONTMAN.

MORTAL COMBAT CORE.

HALLOWEENCORE GOTH.

#1 PETE WENTZ FAN.

SXE MOSH WARRIOR.

WILLIAMSBURG HIPSTER.

HXC TOUGH GUY.

PREHISTORIC EMO.

FAUX HIP HOP.

SCENE QUEEN.

POPCORE DORK.

ORGCORE PUNKER.

UP THE PUNX.

RUDE BOY.

BROOTAL KID.

BLACK METAL KNIGHT.

Mon, 12 Nov 2007 06:40:15 GMT

I lost my atm card.
I have to work another week.
I want to just burst out crying.

Edit:
Oh,
but I am going to schoolies.

Fri, 09 Nov 2007 08:22:15 GMT

Thu, 08 Nov 2007 07:23:53 GMT

Im not on myspace.
Anyone but Dan noticed.

What would happen if one day jocks and whores all over the world woke up to emos on radio.
*Alarm* Dashboard....

Oh wait.
Thats already happening.
But its still not cool to be an emo.

You know.
A real emo.
Whos listens to music that whines and has emotion.
Not what people thinkemo is.
Black fringe and hair and screaming.
Wrong.

I hate society.

Mon, 05 Nov 2007 07:13:02 GMT

I'm on vacation.

Sat, 03 Nov 2007 05:32:25 GMT

Went to Marion to shop.
Totally worht the mass money spent as
Hot Dress/ensemble to wear tonight
Better be good night :(
gon take big bag, flat shoes, umbrella, hoodie.

Please Note:
Today I walked past Sam Clark.
Hot.Hot.HOT!

Thu, 01 Nov 2007 07:25:38 GMT

Everyday is gertting slower
and slower

and slower

and slower

.

Mon, 29 Oct 2007 07:35:36 GMT

Gimme a day an I'll hate kids. And the music. Didnt think of that.

Hope im enough of a Bubble.

I'll see them people i know and glare.
Fake wrist tattoos.

Sun, 28 Oct 2007 03:24:44 GMT

Why did I gotta break it. Went to buy new one. Shelss wrong size.

I fucked up.

Thanks to all for coming out. I have no memory though. Not that I was drunk. Just. Don.t

xxx

Sat, 27 Oct 2007 06:54:28 GMT

PreDrinks.
Claire drop in town.
Kaitlin an I adopt English Accents.
BOSHANKS!!!

hide vodka in bush
miss capulet
whoops...cough

talk tim
band crap
outside

scull vodka
straight
pump bottle
tim vomit after 3 seconds
didnt no was straight ha

throw bottle
fifty sixx
took some cool pics
even wen smashed

walk enigma 
tunney at convienceincencie
revenge
dance
drink

mousey
emma
ty
no shoes
dancing
hoe
highway
photos
home
bed
RAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAH


today
hungover
shopping at target - AGAIN
kfc - petrol - cheesecake shop
SCARIEST SHOP EVER!!!
pecan fuckin pie
ahhaHA
COFFEE PECAN
HAHA
HAD TO BE THERE


HAhahA
DRIVEEEEEEEEEEEEEE

HAHAHA


RACE YOU TO THE QWUARYY
OH LOOK A FATE
HAHAHA
OH OH LUCKY DIP
I GOT A STRAMER

*ATTACH TO TRIKE*





TINKIKLE.

Thu, 25 Oct 2007 10:42:55 GMT

Saturday.
Meet town 7:30
Austral? or Pjs?
Drink around
Let me no if your in.
Out.
Etc.
Ideas.
Concepts.
Wat your wearing.
Bla Bla.

also

Top 5 Performances

‘Australian Hits'

Carl Riseley- "Reminiscing"

Matt Corby- “20 Good Reasons”

Natalie Gauci- "Boys In Town"

Tarisai Vushe- "When It All Falls Apart"

Marty Simpson- “These Days"

Thu, 25 Oct 2007 07:42:41 GMT

Nicole I told Wigg about you and Scott. 6 months and america. she died.

Today was the most stressful day of work.
16 days left.
COUNTING!

Thats all.
Im painting.

Wed, 24 Oct 2007 09:52:26 GMT

Watch this and get back to me.

http://video.astdewtour.com/player/?id=145549#videoid=169949

Life is not worth taking for granted.

Tue, 23 Oct 2007 08:47:45 GMT

Hungries Grilled chicken burger.
Never again.
Ew!
Maccas for life.

Doctor said i dont get migraines.
he can fuck a horse.

Tue, 23 Oct 2007 05:54:36 GMT

Productive sick day.
Talked to 3 managers.
Had one interview.
4 other resumes.

I'm hopeful.
Cause I rep Pantera.
Ha.

Tue, 16 Oct 2007 05:37:36 GMT

Hot Lies
Ruined by fact only sang one ep song.

Kisschasey
Fuckin yiew!!!!
:)

Good Charlotte
Sang my fav song
Were funny
Made me dance
Made me forget the migraine

work today:
Near vomit on computer
Home at 1:30
eat...feelin alot better
need nap

after i read blog
AS IF MY MATT WAS BOTTOM 2!
*DIES/CRIES*
"Speaking of getting it on, it's Matt "My hair is officially worse than Dan Mifsud's now" Corby, another product of 1990. Suddenly I begin to feel very unclean.

He perches himself on the stool (sigh) and launches into Phil Collins' Another Day in Paradise. That's right, PHIL COLLINS. To reiterate - Matt is 17 and HE CHOOSES TO SING PHIL COLLINS. Do you know what he SHOULD have done, dear reader?

Sinead O'Connor's Nothing Compares 2 U.

Think about it. It would have been WILD. Or Faith No More's Epic. Seriously - HOW AWESOME? Or Technotronic's Pump Up The Jam, that would have been cool too.

At any rate he does Phil Collins, he sort of does it well, but really. I mean it's Phil fucking Collins, isn't it? There's a limit to how good it's ever going to be. Plus he slows it right down to about three beats per minute - at this rate it'll be 1992 by the time he's finished, and he'll be able to do Achy Breaky Heart instead. "

Fri, 12 Oct 2007 08:15:25 GMT

Oh.
And now I'm pissed.

Fri, 12 Oct 2007 07:39:04 GMT

Strangely enough.
I'm sad.

Wait, that's not strange.